Things have been slow on the photography front this year, my latest project Power Struggles that I have been working on over the last two and a half years has come to its natural conclusion and my dad has been living with cancer over the past four years, we got the news in January that with Chemotherapy he has a year left. This news has been devastating for him and the past few months have been very difficult for all the family coming to terms with this news.
At the moment the prognosis is good and he has responded well to the last round of Chemotherapy. We hold our breath in the tranquil, saving our thoughts and energy for the next devastating wave of events. My dad, who loves to sail, will appreciate the metaphor.
After the last round of bleeding from orifices and hospital trauma, Dad told me that he had been writing a book, that he was a philosopher and he wanted me to publish it. "Fine" I said. "But, it will have my photographs in it".
"I don't care just as somebody reads it, I don't care if they don't like it, I just want to leave something." It will be called The End is Nigh- If you know my father you will appreciate the humour, for all his merits, he is a harbinger of doom.
So my next project will, reluctantly, be about a modern philosophers last wish, It's not a project I would ever think about making. I often see photographers that make projects about family and think, how? How can they do that? If it was not for my Dad wanting to write his book, perhaps the photos I make would be just for me, my own personal memories I felt compelled to capture. I don't think I would have the strength.
Throughout my photography practice, every new camera, my first developed roll, new film and the changing technologies. Over my lifetime he has remind a constant muse to test my new skills. So it will be very fitting that my first book should be about my Dad and his legacy. I loved making photo books at university but some how forgot how much I loved making them, so I'm happy to be making a beginning from an end.
Like my dad, I really don't care if anybody likes this. Reg still has the last two chapters to write and as I await to read my dad's philosophy on life with joy and equal measure of sadness. Reg is keen that everybody should read his book, so if you would like to register your interest in receiving a copy please subscribe.
I'm hoping that this project will help me in my grief, now and as I compete this work, that has no end date, it's just Nigh.